its gonna be 2008 soon..

but i arent excited..

is e embrace of a new year overrated?

maybe its just me...

im hoping that e new year will be a better one..

yet i seem not ready to welcome it..

whats wrong?

to e rest...

happy new year..

or whatever...

im not like a pessimist or anything..

just a realist...


naz read thru my blog...everything in it...

so i did e same...

brought back so many memories....

and i came to a conclusion.

i still loved her.

angellovesrustic.

loislanelovesclarkkent.


I've been awake for a while now

you've got me feelin like a child now

cause every time i see your bubbly face

I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes I always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

The rain is fallin on my window pane

but we are hidin in a safer place

under the covers stayin safe and warm

you give me feelins that i adore

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

i always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

What am i gonna say

when you make me feel this way

I just........mmmmmmmmmmm

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

i always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

I’ve been asleep for a while now

You tucked me in just like a child now

Cause every time you hold me in your arms

Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul

And I lose all control

When you kiss my nose

The feelin shows

Cause you make me smile

Baby just take your time

Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go…

made several changes today...

not just a physical one to my blog...but it means more den what u see....

im taking baby steps....

ure still my strength..just to let u know...

and yes i've graduated from "STC" hehe...

congrats to yani,eli,nora,yati,liana,junaz,niramon,ayumi,adeline,joyce n ikumi...

looking forward to working with u guys...

n to my niece,sha..thanks for e blog help...hahha...

to my "tight buddy",if you're reading this...

im gonna miss u wen u leave for kangaroo-land....

no more nonsense-ing on msn...

to mum: we're gonna work this out...trust me....


went back to "STC" today....

it was fun...met up with fellow colleagues...

my new found friends cum colleagues...

i hope work will be ok...

only my close friends would know what im talking about...

hopefully a better change...

btw i did msn with her last nite...

cos i cldnt hold myself back...

all e times i missed her...

yet i held back my words...

for i was afraid to hear what she had to say....

rejections are my No. 1 fear...

any form of rejection...

she was nice n polite as usual...

which hurt me even more...

u noe e kind when ure suffering but she's all moved on...

haiz....

"i may be over e fact that we can never be together but that doesnt mean im over you"


People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walkaway. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.


ive been away.

away from all of it.

and i noe some of u guys are worried bout me.

i wish i could say im ok.

but im not.

im sorry.

i thought i all happened in tv n sories we hear from ppl.

never thought it would happen to me.

never.

so much for positive thinking.