thanks yani..now i know why ive been having those aches ard my shoulder...

didnt know it was swollen... and dat lil massage helps..

thanks... :)

and again i feel lonesome.

i love u despite it all.

why?


i am afraid of tmr's test..

very much indeed..dats y i cldnt sleep well although i was very tired.

god bless me please.

on another note,i am sick of arguing.

sometimes i question myself,am i too sensitive?

or just way lacking of it...

cos our arguments seem to evolve ard my lack of_____________ (fill in all my flaws)

i think im such a bad person at times...and i wonder why you are still here with me...

why would still say that you love me when i hurt you?u know very well that i am not the kind of girl that you liked..maybe the emotion that you feel isnt love..but what is it den?

u said i didnt care..

that hurts..

i know u'll be angry anyway for me to blog bout us..but thats how i am...

i noe..to u i am cold..cruel at times...

so y do i still love you?because i think you're a wonderful person deep down beneath all the facade..

whom i think,may not be my destiny due to me..being me...

i cried.a norm la.so dun bother.

pls dun call me back.

like i said, maybe it isnt love you have for me.

cos if it was love, i wouldnt be crying.

apart from all things big...mata tu bukak besar2 eh...do take note that all KW staff have e same IP address...on a monday morning..dis is what i have to attend to...

but nonetheless, you made my day for all the wrong reasons...

haha..wawa..u rock..

sape makan tobasco sauce dier la tau pedasnye eh...

thanks again for e exciting opening to my last week in KW...

n btw i hate weekends...well dis moment in time la cos i hate to study at home...

FOR 2 WHOLE BLOODY DAYS!!

and to my sayang..thanks so much...and i love you to death!!

loves,lela

"as usual la"

in that very tone of urs...

thanks eh.

it doesnt pay to be nice.

u may say im too sensitive.

fuck it.

in e midst of what im gg thru,this is what i get.

at e end of the day, i am alone.

thanks.


i passed my M5 paper la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

u noe how relieved i am!!!!

ok..next paper is even harder....M9 paper...

oh..even riding is put on hold at e moment.. :(

oh well...gotta make sacrificies rite....

now..i cant wait for e KL trip la!!!!!!!!!

soooooooooooooo excited...

KL is nothing new..

but a trip to KL with han, ayu n wawa is a whole diff story...

and b i cant wait for e trip either!!!

loves.


today,when i came into e office at 9 am...nobody(at least in the LITI DEPT) was in...

when i sneezed..there was ECHO!!!

scary u noe...

hahah...

5 mins later all came gushing in....

our office hours are from 8.30 to 5.30 u noe...

haha....

btw i watched the PM's National Day Rally..

to most its boring..but i was so glad i made the decision to watch it...
yup..the malay version..the translated chinese one..and the 2 hour long english version...
what i was learning in my M5 test also came out...and changes to add to it...
and im looking forward to Punggol 21 plus..beautiful place to be...

i think the NDR was really an eye opener for me..i chose to be ignorant all this while...and loads of ppl who knew that i watched e NDR yest were shocked and ask e inevitable..

"since when u interested in all this?its so boring u noe!"

since im gg to change jobs and wat happened in the house on sat morn ard 1 am.that what made me watch e NDR..

i am responsible for how im gonna live my life...and yes..u may say the govt has its all planned out and there's nothing u can do bout it...

well...

i believe in that if i cant change it,im gonna make sure its gonna work in my favour..in other words..a win-win situation for me..

so for those who didnt watch e NDR maybe i can enlighten u with new facts..

they're raising the retirement age to 65..not now..but in the years to come...capping at 67 yrs old...tentatively..

they're increasing the interest on returns in your CPF too... :)

the draw-down age on ur retirement monies is gonna increase too..till 65yrs..in the years to come...

one advice to all: it seems that to retire young in SG is not really possible as to survive in a rat race paced and high living conditions in SG.the govt prefers you to work at least ur 65...till den they are agressively pushing u to do ur necessary investments and plan early for ur retirement...therefore...i think u all shld do e same as to enjoy a relaxed and fulfilling retirement...ok..this has nothing to do with my new job ok..but really think about it ya..

oh..dats all for now ya..cos my head's ringing at e moment...

and i hope b will get better too..ur right hand n all...and do keep me updated on the posting thingies ok sayang??

missing u loads..till fri/sat...

love,angel


i am one happy girl.

:)

onli i noe la.

and yes it has smth to do with my honey munchkins.

what else kan?

from the entries in my blog, its mostly bout her.

:)

oh loves!

BKK?

till fri or sat 1st okies??


yup..written it...n i mean it this time...some of u think its not a right move..but ive made up my mind...

i noe i gonna miss han n wawa the most!!!!!!!honestly...they were my lifelines at KW...
wa,,i dun mean o leave u alone...but i noe u'll do well...we all may not be in e same office but we all are still in e same CBD area.. :) nites at one fullerton will continue okies!!see..i feel like crying again... :(

and again i flunked my M5...

this time i cried.

my b heard it.han too.

thank you.

but im not giving up.and im definitely making it work for me.

today.compass point.yoshinoya.sayang.cant wait.

PISCES

FEBRUARY 19 - MARCH 20
The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry. You are very sensitive to others' feelings, so you rarely hurt them. But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn. You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up. Your creative imagination is at its best when
angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic. When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone. But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness. SO nobody can be upset with you for too long.

TAURUS

APRIL 21 - MAY 20
You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions. It is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose your cool, people don't know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset when you are concerned or when people accuse you of doing something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes you've made in the past. You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

am feeling a lil down...dunno y...

so i took all this quizzes...

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

Caffe Vanilla Frappuccino

Smooth and sweet, you fit in to almost any crowd. No one would suspect you of being a coffee tweaker!

oh well...

lets blog...

how was my weekend...it was...

NOT BAD ah!!!

sat...woke up early to went for the induction at Strategic Partners (9.30am to 3pm) seh......

it was fun..hopefully...preparing myself from the changes ahead...and sheer hard work...i dun think u guys know what im talking about..oh well...nevermind..just wait till e end of the year..that my aim...and loads of moolah!!!

sunday..prac 1.02 at 8 am...gosh..i dunnoe how i actually woke up at 6.15 for my bike pracs n theories...sanggup seh...

oh btw i flunked it...cos bike tak stable..but change gear all ok...out of 8 gundus that morn..only 1 cuckoobird passed....den i stayed home all day....such a gd girl kan!!!!!hahaha..yup...

den....i like slept the whole day la....hahah...ooh..n i studied for my M5..im more confident now...my next paper is on Wednesday, 15 Aug 2007...wish me luck okies....den that same day..in the evening...got another SP induction....

baby's health is not so good...and she's not taking it too well...hmmm...dearest..i think taking time off...taking ur meds..and loads of rest will facilitate ur recovery...dun think too much of it okies...she's exceptionally cute when tgh merengek..hehe...and i'll try to help out as much as i can okies.loves.

still want ur MOS burger??

i get for u okies...

n i got for u another Famous Amos cookie!! :)

bile nie nak pegi KL/Genting??i think all of us are so excited la...han sampai gi tgk Genting nye website..cos nak tgk rides ape ade...hahaha...

missing an.

The Candy Heart You Should Give Is:

To: rustic From: angel

how was e national day for u??

i had a good one, thank you.

nope i didnt catch the NDP...not live or on the telly...

i spent time with her... :)

after bout a month of not meeting, missing each other terribly..and loads of silly arguments...

im so glad i met her....

i love you so much la!!!

but dear...ure becoming sooo skinny la...

den we become the "u skinny i fat couple"....

haha...

well..i did what i felt was right and im not feeling any regrets...

very enlightening u noe...

i din really noe that to make a relationship work..u actually gotta work on it...

maybe because im so used to getting my way all e time...

so dis time..im not just gonna walk away...

trust me honey...

:)

see..im missing her already...

and bout my new job...if u havent already know..im gonna resign from KW...im gonna start as a MT at Strategig Partners..its gonna be diff since i flunked my M5 and thus to fork out $86 soon for the retest...i dun think im gonna give it up.....in fact im gonna give everything ive got...so bear with me okies b......

my priorities at the moment...

1. my honey munchkins

2.my new job

3. my bike license

if ure asking me wat bout my mum n nieces..they're alws No. 1*...no doubts bout that....

so b...baby blue okies???

love,lels


oh..for the record i flunked my M5..

so dun ask...

i blame it on my tight schedule..

cos i was sooooooooooooo close to passing...

oh well..another 86 bucks to pay...

yest,after work i went out wif han and ayu...thanks wawa for bubble tea-ing us!!!!

i had e chilli crab hot plate rice at far east....dah lame seh tak makan that dish!!!!!!

and of course e NUS question....

hahahahha....

tak leh angkat seh!!!!!!

ooh...

ayu.,ingat tak lingrie shopping kite????

e maximiser that u "recommended" me...which was hanging upside down...and there i was thinking it was a new style/way of wearing bra..thanks eh!!!

and the bra with the nipple rest!!!hahah...

thanks girlfriends for a very the sakit perut nite laughing our asses off....

an, wen its convenient for e both of us..we will meet...and i really hope its soon..cos im missing u terribly....

wawa.han.ayu.31 aug 2007.consperm tau!!

love,lels