yup.im feeling green.

envy.

jealousy.

i thought maybe i will not feel such emotions.

ok.fine.im always envious of someone else cos it alws seemedthat the grass is greener on the other side.see green again.

but jealousy?

everything she says that may be associated with another girl, woman, lady or even a makcik triggers me into a fit of spasms of jealousy...im like so touchy la..so easily affected...and for the first time..nothing to do with that time of the month.

so y am i like dis now.i am selfish.is dat the reason...i feel that another better person could just replace me at the snap of her fingers.im feeling kinda lost.i noe im the gf but yet...do u think she loves me as much i as i do??

y am i so afraid of losing her?y am i getting nitemares of her leaving me?

Y DO I GET SO JEALOUS SO EASILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry guys..this feeling has been bugging me so much..jealousy is such a horrble feeling u noe...it makes u so flustered and make ur imagination run wild...so wild that its so difficult even to differentiate between reality and the nonsense amidst it....

haiz....

i miss u,la...if can..i want to be with u like all the time...
though i noe its not possible...

love,angel