im lost.

im here.but not my soul.

i just want to be happy.now.

yet,pulled back into reality,i cant.

made too many mistakes.trying to mend them.

drained of emotions and confusions.i resort to long bus rides and sleep.

i have a feeling i wont be around long.no,im not suicidal.

juz dat feeling that my breath is just shorter den yours.much shorter.

i cry.every night.

hopefully this is just a phrase im going thru.

the low points in my life.the pits.


i just realised smth.my daddy's 8th anni.just passed 2days ago.i remembered it actually on the 21st nite ard the time he passed away.i was lying in bed with mum.wanted to tell her but i didnt.was uncomfortable talking to her about all this.i miss my dad so much.honestly, im broken into pieces now.too many pieces.too painful to put back together again.i rather join daddy.Al-fatihah for daddy. "la rindu kat ayah..."

norlela malati