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Monday, May 28, 2007 Y 9:08 AM honestly, i had a bad weekend. damn bad.u wldnt even imagine it. the police.my niece's discipline master.the airport. my fucked up bro.nothing new. new problems.same old shit. thank god for my superman(read: my honey munchkins).  my clark kent u were there.my pillar of support. a million thanks b.for the advice.for listening. oh how much i love my superman.
insya-Allah,29.05.07.fish & co.dinner.u & me. i believe in super heroes. -=louis lane hearts clark kent=- Thursday, May 24, 2007 Y 7:08 PM im lost. im here.but not my soul. i just want to be happy.now. yet,pulled back into reality,i cant. made too many mistakes.trying to mend them. drained of emotions and confusions.i resort to long bus rides and sleep. i have a feeling i wont be around long.no,im not suicidal. juz dat feeling that my breath is just shorter den yours.much shorter. i cry.every night. hopefully this is just a phrase im going thru. the low points in my life.the pits. i just realised smth.my daddy's 8th anni.just passed 2days ago.i remembered it actually on the 21st nite ard the time he passed away.i was lying in bed with mum.wanted to tell her but i didnt.was uncomfortable talking to her about all this.i miss my dad so much.honestly, im broken into pieces now.too many pieces.too painful to put back together again.i rather join daddy.Al-fatihah for daddy. "la rindu kat ayah..." norlela malati Wednesday, May 23, 2007 Y 11:17 AM what is the true definition of a sacrifice?? well... Dictionary.com states that a sacrifice is the surrender or destruction of something prized or desirable for the sake of something considered as having a higher or more pressing claim. i might need to sacrifice smth dis yr....smth reallly big...smth i hold close to my heart....i might need to sacrifice me. yup...what im planning to do is for my future..the future of my family....i think im definitely gonna lose some my frens(note: the numbers may change substantially), sleep, the greatest sport of all time(read: rugby), weight(note: at last!) and maybe even my most beloved apple-of-my-eye honey munchkins(read:an)... does that paper qualification worth all dis loss??maybe not for me....cos i'll be an empty nutshell...but its for my family...my nieces.... so how??dunnoe if my honey munchkins can take it??i mean time and conversations are limited for us....so we will have to make the most of what have now...n for me its barely enuff.... cos i miss my honey munchkins too much....i think of her like all e time....cos y? cos i dun see her often... i noe many of my frens wonder...y my honey munchkins?? for the reasons that u guys dun see...im not here to explain or "defend" but i have my own reasons....and honestly, i am so happy wen im with my honey munchkins...one reason y im still rooted and not as wild as u guys think i am....yes...there's e arguments and the fights...but to me...dats part of relationships...and most of the time im at fault too...i admit that. cldnt u be happy for me? things at home r not gd either...i will onli want to go home to see my mum & nieces and for slp..thats all period.to see ur fucking-pitiful face and ur sad sickening stories are not in my agenda...im still there in the house because of mum..u noe y?cos daddy is no longer ard and she's e only family i have...for u to fucking hell hurt her is my issue...im keeping quiet cos she doesnt want havoc...i will change things.i will.wait and see. and yes, i will continue to ignore your exixtence. things are difficult now..i dun deny it....but i had gd times..gd memories...hopefully they'll guide me thru. Insya-Allah. honey munchkins,you are greatly missed.29/05/07.dinner.insya-Allah. -002.jpg) .thank GOD for frens like them. -=lelalovesan=- Tuesday, May 22, 2007 Y 10:02 AM yups....as i promised...well...dis is only some of e tioman pics...the place is heavens u noe....we stayed at PANUBA INN RESORT...such a paradise and ooh so delicious food!!!  blue??green??turqouise??u decide???damn captivating!!e sound of the waves...man...i miss e "wak"...hehe...  in the far left is the restaurant where yummy food is served and the beach where we burnt ourselves....
 while we're roasting ourselves....remember e ice cream too!!!!*misses* btw...my b loves to dig like really deep holes into the sand...till it like reach e bottom....cuteness...  love the sunset....aahh.....one reason y i didnt want to go home.... *us on our 5th anni*   *my honey munchkins*  my b thinks dis pic is so funny...cos i was llike trying to get the waiter's attention...it took quite some time mind u.....hehe...  i swear she was not drunk.....but damn high i guess...from looking at e beautiful waters...and dis was at breakfast time!!! to my b:thanks again for e tioman trip cos i had so much fun and to be able to enjoy such a beautiful place with you is such a blessing.happy belated bdae again hunz! *angel loves rustic* Monday, May 21, 2007 Y 2:34 PM 1stly....it has been POSTPONED to 15 June 2007!!!yeah baby!!! tell u smth...dis is e procedure i will be gg thru...in early june '07.. honestly i dun care how many ppl have gone thru it...but i dun like e thought of these tubes entering mu body...thru my mouth...n where e sun dun shine...gosh.....im getting paranoid i noe...but read on.. Gastroscopy - Procedure  Performed only by an experienced gastroenterologist in a properly equipped endoscopy suite. Following sedation, patient is placed in the left lateral decubitus position. A hollow mouthpiece is inserted to protect the patient's teeth and facilitate instrument passage. The endoscope is slowly advanced orally and is "swallowed" by the patient. Once past the cricopharyngeal region the instrument is guided only under direct visualization. An important landmark is the Z-line at the gastroesophageal junction, approximately 40 cm from the teeth. The tip is then advanced into the cardia, with gentle insufflation of air. The various portions of the stomach are inspected - cardia, fundus, greater and lesser curvature, antrum. Following thus, the tip is then passed through the pylorus, into the duodenal bulb, and sometimes as far as the descending portion of the duodenum. Mucosal surfaces are reinspected as the instrument is withdrawn. Biopsies, cytologic brushings, polypectomy, cauterization of bleeding lesions, etc, are performed as indicated. Colonoscopy procedure Before the colonoscopy procedure, an intravenous line is inserted into the back of your hand to provide medications that make you relaxed and drowsy. Although you will probably be 'awake' during the procedure, the medications usually prevent you from having any memories of it. Colonoscopy is usually performed on a table. The patient lies on their left-hand side with their knees tucked up to their chest. The colonoscope is gently inserted through the anus and up into the colon, and air is introduced to help the colonoscope pass. Once the colonoscope has reached the point where the colon joins the small intestine, the doctor slowly withdraws it while looking carefully at the colon lining. Photographs may be taken. The procedure generally takes 15 minutes to one hour. If colon polyps are found during a colonoscopy, they are removed and the tissue is sent for analysis to determine if the polyp is cancerous. Polyp removal or biopsy may cause excessive bleeding, which may require blood transfusion or re-insertion of the colonoscope to control the bleeding. Immediately after the procedure After the procedure, you can expect: Bloating Gas Mild cramping You may be offered a drink and something light to eat about one hour after you are fully awake Usually, you can go home after four hours or so. Possible complications Colonoscopy is a safe procedure, although complications sometimes occur. These include: Excessive bleeding Perforation or puncture of the colon wall Taking care of yourself at home Be advised by your doctor, but general suggestions include: Patients should not drive themselves home after a colonoscopy procedure, due to the effects of the medications that are given. Don't consume alcohol, as it may interact with the medications. Follow all dietary suggestions. Long term outlook Any abdominal bloating, pain and flatulence will resolve within a couple of days. These symptoms are caused by the air that is pumped into the colon during the procedure. You will need to see your doctor again to discuss your results from the colonoscopy. Treatment depends on the diagnosis.  ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mummy!!!! luckily my abg an will be wif me....hehe...loves. Friday, May 18, 2007 Y 4:07 PM e medical appt on thursday was not gd at all.......... now im gg for e day surgeries on e *th of June...most prob it will be on e 7th cos b cant make it on e 8th.... im scared u see.... :( very scared actually....and my arm is still sore from yesterday's blood test....was i that pale doc that u had to check my blood count?? on a happy note...dil has been emailing me...my bestie for e past 11yrs...she aske out too...juz e 2 of us....missed dat babe.... i took dis quiz....and check out e result....i find it very funny u see cos if im like 32% girly...wat bout my b??hehehe....
im missing u.... Y 9:35 AM Yang terindah Terlukis di bibir mu Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu Sebegitu Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri Berwarna warni segala Yang dijanjikan ia Usah biarku bersendirian Usah biar hati mu di tawan Usah biar diri ku di sini Seorang menunggu tanpa teman Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu Usah biar semua berlalu Usah terlupa perasaan hati Pertama kali kita bertemu Usah lepaskan Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu Ku ingin selalu bersama mu Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya Engkau dan dia harus bersama Mendungnya langit bila berkata Kita patutnya masih bercinta Usah lepaskan Usah lepaskan Usah lepaskan Yang terindah Terlukis di bibir mu Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu Sebegitu Wednesday, May 16, 2007 Y 10:13 AM "Pls tell me im crazy coz im sittin here in my rm n thinking abt nuthin else bout u..Im sorry.. Im so sorry.." hmm...i was asleep when i received the sms...sorry to say but i think im crazier cos i think of u all e time...whenever and wherever... huh...so much for being single....it sucks la..but at e same time liberating.... im planning to go back to school...did i tell u that??yup.... i missing her.loads.u will never know how tiring and hurtful it is to avoid and act as if ure ok...when ure definitely NOT... oh well....   *rusticangel*
Monday, May 14, 2007 Y 7:13 PM monday:morning tuesday: morning wednesday:afternoon thursday:afternoon friday:night saturday: night sunday:OFF monday:OFF some things i dun forget. or maybe i choose not to. i appear aloof.bout many things. only HE knows. p/s: a special note to chris "thanks for e wake up call...now i noe myself better..how unappreciative i am...dat im a verbally abusive person to ppl i love...how i tend to keep things to myself for e fear of hurting others...again..my apologies" perfectly imperfect.thats me. hate to admit it.im missing her.no doubt bout dat. norlela malati Friday, May 11, 2007 Y 9:29 AM im back...yup from e ever so lovely tioman....seriously...i didnt want to leave that place...once i upload e photos...u'll see e reason y.......thanks b for e beautiful holiday...and i hope u enjoyed ur lil bday surprise n e fedex-ed strawberry bday cake...hehhe.... u noe wat??i'll tell u a secret..... chris has a gf!yup...its true...a chinese girl...whose name i forgotten....starts with a D though....they juz got together....am happy for him..but what happened to no gfs before NS?hehe...i hope i wont lose my best guy fren though...u noe how girls can get....yup...now i noe y i havent heard from him...busy dating eh... no matter wat i'll be here for u...hope things will be okies between u n ur mum...we both know shit happens...be strong...now u got that special someone,i wish u all e best...and should u need a fren...im here...always...cos uve been there for me as my bf...my bro...my best fren....n i wanna tell u that ur friendship is deeply appreciated... on 10.05.2007, my frens(han,rilla & kak yanti) made me watch that malay horror flick...Jangan Pandang Belakang...i must say that it was the most tiring show ive ever watched...u see..im a not entirely a fan of anything scary(see:penakut nak mampos) so to actually agree to watch e movie(see:inducement by han n rilla) was a giant leap for me....but e movie was ok..though ive never been scared by a microwave...and e part where e religious man asked Opah hu she was...and u noe wat she said? "aku BAPAK KAU!" funny sia...but i enjoyed e show cos i was wif a great bunch of frens..thanks babe for dragging me to watch e show wif u guys...now wat m i gonna ans to my niece???that bibik is not gg to watch e show wif her n her friends???maybe i'll ask an to babysit them...mehehehehehe....  after JPB...we are definitely not looking back...no matter wat!hhehe..
talking bout an,my love....i miss her loads since we came back.....i guessed i got usedto having her ard me...well we were so close for e time in Tioman....wat a perfect combination...beautiful place,great food...and of course being with the one u love.... :) so july??on tak??i hope so...insya-Allah... Dinner & Spiderman on Sat...i feel like dressing up... :) *demi la rindu an*
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