i slammed down e phone last nite.
cos i reallie felt hurt.
y did smth so small escalated to smth like dis.
mind u, e last time i slammed down e phone was a long time ago.

im holding on cos i truly beleive dat dis is juz a rough patch we're gg thru.
i noe its been difficult but somtimes i feel dat u dun want to be in this rship.

the fault lies in me everyone.yup me.
i rushed her, i guess.e guilt still follows me.i noe im a fool.

its hard wen we talk, we misunderstand each other.
u think one thing and think another.

so y am i still holding on again?
cos i trully believe in us.
and yes i love her.alot.

but i have almost everything against me.lemme tell u y.
she thinks im too popular with too many ppl wanting to get to know me;but isnt dat what friendster is for.
jealousy is fine but not morbid jealousy.its difficult wen everytime u have to re-assure that yes,i do love u.i dun show it but i change to be what u want me to be.i try.

i cant show u my affection in public.and each time i show u my affections, u question me.so i stopped.y?cos i feel embarrased.which gf doesnt if each time she tries she got pushed away?

i want u to love for hu i m.pls.these ppl ard me,let them be.y cldnt our rship be about us n not them?

one note: if u think u actually dun love me,den tell me.dun stay on for symphaty.i dun need pity.i want someone who loves me n hu i love in return.