doll domination

2009-06-27T01:35:00.003+08:00

back in the arms of love.

for the one who in the end proved me one's sincere true love.

no lies.

no more lies.

this time,like any couple we will work things out.

2009-06-18T20:47:00.002+08:00

its almost 2 mths since i last blogged.

way too much things happened.

haiz.the worst is,i have no access to my email n facebook,thus i've to create a new one...
i had that email since secondary school seh....haiz..honestly im so sad bout this....

but one has to adapt.

yes ppl, im a CERTIS CISCO Auxiliary Police Officer.hehe..hard to believe eh??

i miss blog n updating.i miss the virtual life.i miss you.

and yup, the rumours are true;that i m single.

lets not barf or go into detail.lets just live.

btw this weekend i will be up in kl with yul.she's driving.period.dun think otherwise cos nothin's gonna happen n i can bet my life upon it.

i wanna be successful,dont you??

2009-04-19T14:40:00.001+08:00

single.

i would laugh at that comment last time.

now,i cry.i smile.and cry.and smiled.the sequence goes on.

n im stuck here because of you.

thanks.

2009-03-30T03:18:00.002+08:00

ive cried so much yest & today.

my eyes hurts but nothing compared to my heart's.

i promised e bf i will sleep;maybe i will after this entry.maybe i cant.

what should i do now?im at a point where everything's a blur.

tears have fogged my vision.
hurt has pricked my heart.

nonetheless,i still love you.

2009-03-29T23:25:00.002+08:00

i spent friday nite at e barracks...

and i DONT like it.

i sleep on e upper bunk n too near to e air con.

regimental life sucks.

n i miss e BF so much i cried while showering.

the girls are great but....

i feel like i dun have e BF to me anymore.or am i too clingy.oh i just dunno.

it hurts.i screamed. i punched.red palms and bruises.dun worry,he didnt touch me.heck,he wasnt anywhere near me.

another 5 more days till i meet love.total of 8 days of not meeting.

:(

dunno if i'll pull thru without him.

i miss you.even if i express it differently.

i hate my period.it came on strong on sat.while i wa doing my MMPI test.dunnoe if i'll pass.

haiz.

i love you sayang,forever and ever.

2009-03-23T16:27:00.002+08:00

i had a good sunday with han,marinah n von.

e bride n e bridesmaids.

am done with my medical too.

hate to say this, but im at heaviest now.haiz.

i am really unhappy bout this fact.

27th April.8.3o am.

please GOD,let me lose weight!

another thing im not looking forward is staying in.

IM GOING TO MISS MY BOYFRIEND!

:(

2009-03-20T20:42:00.002+08:00

good news thru sms received today at 1800hrs!!!!

at last....

cant wait la!

can lose weight liao...or at least i hope so....

hehe..

2009-03-19T00:52:00.003+08:00

i have so many things to say;

but its just one of those times where

words are just simply not good enough.

iheartmyboyfriend

"one year babe.what u think bout that.a stepping stone.the love of my life.my knight in shining armour.and shining hair.super nice adidas pulse perfume that he showers in.hehe.im all yours.i hope i mean as much to you as you are to me,baby.i will stand by you.sayang you."

sometimes, i noe that im not the best gf and even when i tried,i still sucked.but i guess he could still stand my nonsense.and even when i wanted him to be what i expected n when he fell short,im still loving him.

love is so weird.like what jason mraz sings "it takes no time to fall in love but it takes years to know what love is".( n im only in the 1st yr.;) )

2009-03-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

ok..the long awaited entry.

many things had happened.most important,my 23rd birthday.

surprise bday celebration at Rock Cafe on Kumar's Nite from the bf n SIL.

n sexy gifts!! :)

then the One Fullerton bday surprise from my TP babes...i love HAN & WAWA...and isya,kak yanti n faizah.

my,i thought this yr i'll have another quiet bday n ive been pleasntly surprised.thank you all.honestly u guys make me one happy girl,no...lady!!!!!!!!!

wooo hooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im lazy to upload e pics...so go to my FB la eh....

im gg thru a rather difficult moment with myself right now...

n i noe its affecting my rship with the bf...haiz...maybe...well....

btw i changed my no.

i will update the EXCLUSIVES..wait for the sms...

hehe...

2009-02-26T01:24:00.002+08:00

i hate this feeling that im feeling rite now. Tell me that im wrong.

2009-02-21T17:53:00.002+08:00

yest i met my 2 gorgeous babes;wawa & han.

it was happy,fun,no pretenses.

and e neo-prints we took...it was like as if it we were just teenage girls....(han will say that she is forever 17 or 21 depending on her mood i think)..

n from the photos we took...i say HOTTIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

at least i look better than when i was in kental sec sch years...or slacker(slekeh)poly days....haha...

looking forward to seeing my dolls(wawa n han) on rilla's wedding...

definitely looking forward to 03.03.09; turning 23 babe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the bf is working...and it falls on a tuesday...so what's my plans???

dunnoe...haha...its not a big deal for me anymore..just the knowledge of having a fantastic soulmate (IQ),friends, n family is sufficient.presents n gifts are bonuses;i prefer good dinners,crazy dancing...u know....

everyday my hidden or not-so-hidden for passion for fashion is ever growing...

its just a matter of time.

and one day u'll see me living my dream.

come jimmy choos,prada and birkin bags!!

to e love of my life;our 1 year anniversary is in less than a month a way....we've come a long way... :) am happy;no..thats an understatement.words are just mere alphabets to express the joy im experiencing.

i love u mat jambu!

2009-02-18T13:02:00.002+08:00

HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!

been quite a while eh.....

for the record, im not working at the moment.and not too worried at the moment.funny cos i thought i would be hysterical.

but tht doesnt mean im not on the search for a job.its just that im being kind to myself,for once.money isnt everything but does help,like in a lot of ways.

so yeah; but happiness cant be bought.

mum just got discharged from hosp.so she'll be home for quite a while.a good time to talk n catch up with her.

the bf is enjoying civilian work eventhough his partner is rather sucky.

i miss erlena. :)

and roihan.

and i cant wait to turn 23!

to all,im still in sg la..so.....u got my no rite???

do smth....hehe....

see you guys ard.

miss u baby boy!!happy 11th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-06T12:54:00.004+08:00

was supposed to lunch with han..

hehe..as usual smth came up.dis time its her BOSS..

its ok..kinda get used to it.

at least we tried.. :)

n erlena made lunch plans already!

gosh..im eating lunch alone??

haha...

usually i dread lunching alone...BUT today is different!

haha....just because of one gaming device..ahe

baby's is in light blue of course...and playing this game!

now i really want a psp..in black...or red!

2009-02-05T16:24:00.002+08:00

I say: wei!
I say: mane ade bitchin??
I say: wen done openly its no longer bitching
aestee says: weisemo
aestee says: on another persons wall
aestee says: bitching ah tu
aestee says: hahahh
I say: its called having a facebook wall to waalconversaion
I say: hehheheheheh
aestee says: ahhh hanur
I say: hahhahahhahaha
aestee says: walersation la
I say: wth??
I say: hahhahahahahhahahahahhahahaha
I say: wat the hell are we talking bout now??
aestee says: k nvm
aestee says: hhahahaha

another classic nonsensical msn conversation between me n aestee on a sickly thursday afternoon.pat merepek No. 1!

2009-02-05T14:30:00.002+08:00

The first time we spoke
My ears heard a song
The first time we met
My eyes sang along

The first time we kissed
My lips muttered the words
The first walk in the park
Brought the chorus of birds

The first movie we spent
Cuddled in my arms
In the background I heard
The whispering of charms

The first time you said
I love you to me
The sounds of my heart
Could have parted the sea

All the first in the past
And the first still ahead
All the madness and fun,
And the laughter in bed,
Moments that I hope will last
Only brought tears to shed

Such a beautiful song
Written by our life
Perhaps can continue
As husband and wife

I love you forever
From this moment on
My love will be written
In a poem or a song

-Soulmate by shannen-

the beauty of love.for these moments that we dare to take the plunge.

i love you babybeh!

2009-02-05T12:52:00.003+08:00

i am even more sick after returning from the 2 days MC!

slight fever so the 'matching'ADIDAS jacket over frilly pink top..

so tak kena.WTH!sick ppl like this la...

hehe...

btw i miss the BF very much.yup.this guy rite here.

haiz.news that Vday might not be clebrated on Vday itself.

oh well.

there's more Vdays to look forward to.

2009-02-04T16:07:00.002+08:00

since its february..the month of love n lela is so mentel...

this is what happens...

hehe....

i love u nic iq jr!

Vday hurry come!

love,lels

2009-01-29T10:33:00.002+08:00

i hate it when ppl do not have respect for other ppl's property,feelings,relationships.

it just shows that you have no respect for yourself.

you knew that he's attached and confessed your feelings to him.he told you that sorry but he is loyal to his girl.

ok,yet u texted him and called him names of endearment.and demanded attention like a gf.
now im e gf who had read his texts.do you know i feel?eventhough he has told me everything?

it still hurts.it still makes me cry at the thought of losing my bf.i know he loves me but in this world with bitches like u,it makes it so much more difficult and dramatic to just have a rship with my sayang.

and for the record, i hate drama.my life is no soap opera.act somewhere else.

truthfully, i would love to hurl all the expletives and vulgarities at you but the satisfaction is short term.

u have my sympathy,you B-grade actress. put ur talent where they pay you.for a change, break Box-Office records;not relations and ppl who truly love each other.dun blame me for the part you didnt get.

this post seemed to be so angsty and sympathetic at the same time.

Fathiya;ur name may mean victory but you have just lost.

p/s: i need no more than what i have now.so eff off.

2009-01-28T12:04:00.003+08:00

rilla.lela.han

taken in 2007 when we went to JB on a good friday.

was stuck in such a horrible traffic human jam at the customs.

still.good memories.

2 years on.many changes/disappearances.

rilla: the 1st to get married in march '09 just a couple of days before my 23rd birthday.

lela: attached to iq jr and plans to wed in '10.

han: to wed in Aug '09.before her 24th birthday.

an updated photo i promise.soon.in march probably.hehe.

time may have passed,

looks may changed,

but the friendship we share;

are one of the same.

love and definitely miss u babes.

2009-01-24T12:56:00.003+08:00

when you have to look away
when you don't have much to say
thats when I love you I love you, just that way
to hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk, with two left feet
thats when I love youI love you, endlessly
and when you're mad 'cause you lost the game
forget i'm waiting in the rain
baby I love youI love you anyway
'cause heres my promise made tonight
you can count on me for life
thats when I love you
when nothing you do can change my mind
the more I learn,the more I love,the more my heart can't get enough
thats when I love you
when I love you
no matter what
so when you turn to hide your eyes
'cause the movie made you cry
thats when I love youI love you a little more each time
and when you can't quite match your clothes
or when you laugh at your own jokes
thats when I love you
I love you, more than you know
and when you forget that we had a date
or that look you give when you show up late
baby I love youI love you anyway
'cause heres my promise made tonight
you can count on me for life
thats when I love you
when nothing you do can change my mind
the more I learn
the more I love
the more my heart can't get enough
thats when I love you
when I love you no matter what
ooohhh! oooooohh!
thats when I love you
when nothing baby nothing you do can change my mind
the more I learn the more I love the more my heart can't get enough
thats when I love you when I love you no matter what!
no matter what
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song of the moment : That's when i love you by aslyn

2009-01-24T12:18:00.002+08:00

i just wanted some of our alone time together.

a walk.a talk.

but it seems my timing is always off.

so who do i turn to?

when its not you?

its dark and im afraid of the dark.

bring me back to the sweet memories that we once created.

and re-create them all over again

2009-01-24T12:01:00.004+08:00

Hey
Between You and Fiza Johari

Fiza Johari
Today at 6:15am
How did you know Jason?

Lela Malati
Today at 11:13am
thru facebook.

Fiza Johari
Today at 11:20am
Just by saying hi to him on FB? for no reason...?

Lela Malati
Today at 11:23am
yup i guess.

Fiza Johari
Today at 11:26am
oh I was just wondering coz I thought it was weird is all...coz I personally don't add people I don't really know...

Lela Malati
Today at 11:32am
oh ok.

Fiza Johari
Today at 11:33am
not to be mean/rude/intrusive, but what was your purpose of adding him?

Lela Malati
Today at 11:37am
babe y does it matter to u?as far as im concern, its my perogative whom i wanna add?im making friends.period.geez.are we done?

Fiza Johari
Today at 11:46am
well it does matter because i know him and I know it is your prerogative (correct spelling) but I just don't need any BS if you catch my drift. you have absolutely no reason to add him. you don't even know him. and you don't just add people you don't know like that on FB..you can add whomever else you fancy but not MY friends! NOW we are done...

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for some ppl...the drama never ends.

haha.malas nak layan.if ure guessing whether i replied her after her last message;i didnt..that wld be a waste my time.

den u guys muz be wondering y i added jason?u see im not much of an explain-er.its definitely not to find bfs...haha...cos i already have one!not to spike that fiza either.gosh!like she made our life entertaining already in sg.artistic reasons .oh well.i will only need to explain to certain ppl like my bf and mohd i guess, they are ppl hu matter.and those who ask i guess.

this entry is a sure fire starter.whatever.im not the kind who like drama in my life like you do.but u see im as open as hell to what i dun like.rude and pretentious ppl.

to jason if ure reading this; keep the beautiful art going.

to my syg...i miss u la...hope to see u today....

2009-01-21T11:37:00.002+08:00

i want this!!!!wrapped in this...

and i so want this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz...my mac moments!!!!

has anyone told you that you're my soulmate?

someone you laugh and cry with as you both age,

has anyone told you that you're my sunshine?

the only one that i trust to put my sorrows behind.

at last i got to hear ur voice dearest at 1125hrs...

no words cld express my relief and very well hidden gladness to know that ure safe...

although i did come across as a lil pissed..

its becaused i missed u like sooooooooooooooooooooo much la...

i have a mouth that moves but failed to speak.

2009-01-21T09:48:00.002+08:00

today will have a lot of mini-posts...

i miss the bf...haiz..the nite shift(8.30pm till 11.00am), i dun like!!!never have i felt so lonely even to slp...

and again i wld like to emphasize that i MISS my bf!

2009-01-20T17:24:00.004+08:00

(didie's wedding-blue familie!and yes tania is back from denmark!)

i'll always remember

it was late afternoon

it lasted forever n ended so soon

you we're all by yourself

staring up at a dark gray sky

i was changed

in places no one could find all your feelings so deep inside,

was there that i realized that forever was in your eyes

the moment i saw you cry

it was late in september

n i had seen you before

you were always the cold one

but i was never that sure

you we're all by yourself

staring up at a dark gray sky

i was changed

in places no one could find all your feelings so deep inside,

was there that i realized that forever was in your eyes the moment i saw you cry

i wanted to hold you

i wanted to make it go away

i wanted to know you

i wanted to make your everything

i'll always remember it was late afternoon

in places no one would find

in places no one could find all your feelings so deep inside,

was there that i realized that forever was in your eyes the moment i saw you cry

i think i saw you cry

the moment i saw you cry

from the movie,A Walk To Remember.which i cried buckets of course.

taught me that life was indeed unfair.

but nonetheless beautiful while it lasted.

feeling emo i think.or very hungry.

hehe.

impt date to note: 22.01.09 -6.30pm

2009-01-19T12:43:00.002+08:00

in every relationship,there's bound to be ups and downs.

like ours,its bobbing quite well...

but my incapability of verbal expression has caused much problems to the bf and myself.

i cant seemed to articulate my thoughts,my feelings.this is an issue cos i guess the bf is not good at charades either.

its not that i do not want to say what i feel or think,but i cant seem to mouth them out.most of u think this crazy being the talkative cuckoobird i am,but yeah..its true. and the worst thing is it affects the bf.

it affects me cos i dun want to surpress my feelings anymore.after years of building that protective wall ard me;to protect myself,to protect my heart i think im ready to fully face the world again.like a habit,its difficult to change cos its like a metal shirt one wear.

every silence carries my desire to express my thoughts and feelings.the tears that roll down my cheeks were the unspoken words that yearn to be heard.

where should i start?what do i say?even the vast vocabulary and dictionary reading days couldnt help me.

but i will overcome this;one step at a time.

for the eyes that vision,
for the nose that savours,
for the ears that translates;
for the skin that moves;
for the mouth that whispers;
for the heart that loves.

2009-01-16T17:45:00.001+08:00

i have a heart n it was true,

it fled from me and went to u,

be kind to it as i have done,

for u have two and i have none

credits:shannen

such beauty.oh.there is such thing as heaven after all.

2009-01-14T15:00:00.002+08:00

its only the 14th day of january 2009 but the insecurities from 2008 has found its way,creeping slowly towards my mind.

damn.

ive many resolutions and ive sworn to make this year THE year.

to mummy,baby n myself:i will not disappoint.

have faith in me.cos i definitely have faith in and for you.

to the bf esp;09.09.09 please?in HK probably in DisneyLand wld be gd! :)

2009-01-13T12:48:00.001+08:00

i like.

2009-01-13T10:02:00.002+08:00

i cant believe that erlena's husband who is a grown man and father of 2 beautiful kids and also policeman cum photographer thinks my bf looks like a real guy...

now we noe e reasons behind the 2nd looks...haha....

happy la u b!

muahaha.....

2009-01-08T11:38:00.003+08:00

Lels : You Are Peaceful and Content

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Iq Jr :You Are Hyper and Spirited

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.
You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.
You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

b,i miss you.

2009-01-07T09:16:00.004+08:00

2nd day period sucks!!!!!

im having bad cramps...

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on a separate note,yest i surprised my bf!

well its rather belated but i had to do it anyway...

massive-all-out-clubbing on his birthday does not constitute to a birthday celebration...rite?

so had to make a few little white lies and headed to regina's to get him the Rjays Avenger full face...

still new and nice and glossy plus free helmet bag...all in the box....i was like e only girl in the shop...except for this nyonya who was eating noodles near the cashier;she doesnt count cos she had really bad hair..hehe...

rushed to sun plaza to get the box wrapped and pick up a small Heavenly Chocolate Fudge cake frm Angie's...den grab dinner frm MacD for myself cos this running ard made me so hungry!!!

once i reached his place,his mum treated me to the lovely satays that i love so much...isn't she sweet???

supposed to surprise him with the cake once he opened the door but the candles weren't lit on time and i was like giggling like stupid...like a person who was surprised not the one who did the surprising...haha...slenge....

i love you baybeh!

2009-01-05T14:27:00.002+08:00

the birthday boy!

im too lazy to blog but i've go so much to say!!!

tmr perhaps?

2008-12-31T10:51:00.002+08:00

NYE at last.haha.such a big hoohaa bout it.the parties.the countdown.

whos wearing what.whos meeting who.my love hate relationship with life.

but 1st,the BIG question is...

what did Lela do with the $XXX that the bf just transferred to her account??

muahaha!!!evil laugh!!!(please be reminded that just before dearest bf transferred the buckeoos,i was like totally broke!)

Did i....

1. take the cab to work and that would burn bout 30bucks plus?

2. buy my dearest colleagues breakfast(anna,nisa n erlena)?

3. buy myself my fav delicious but expensive Starbucks breakfast?

4. booked manicure for herself at Esbodouir located in Vivo today at 3?

actually the list can go on forever....

and the ans is.....

3 & 4 : see b..i didnt take cab!!such discipline...muaha...ok...my breakfast is $11.50..a grande caramel frapp and the ohh delicious Croque Monsier sandwich...which i have yet to finish...i opted for an express mani and pedi($27) ok...not the classic one($60)...cant u se my sacrificies??hehe...

and thanks b for getting me that eye treatment appt...the first from u...where can u get a partner like that??free eye treatment..den spa?hehe...thats y u deserve helluva birthday celebration from me..

i love u baybeh!!

but ure asleep now n we're supposed to meet for lunch at 1..(today half day!!) oh well...i cant window shop or do the actual shopping till my manicure appt!haha...alone though...maybe i can put this solitude to good use.muahaha.

oh GOD!my firm gave us Lana Choc cakes to welcome the 2009..am i nt fat enuff??haha..

fat but happy?skinny but miserable??

i settle for fat but happy...and go for gym or yoga later. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR dolls! May 2009 be a better year for all!

love,lels

2008-12-30T18:12:00.002+08:00

as much as im excited bout the new year...

im more excited bout my darl's bday on 03.01.09!!!

i mean this is one of the rare times i get to pamper him!!!!!

i've settled dinner venue and im soooooooooooooooooooo excited...somewhere fancy..a first definitely for both of us. :)

i thought i cld just go shopping mad on shoes, clothes and bags....but restaurant n menu shopping too??im amazed at myself.hahahha...

the pressie has been confirmed.so no worries.just the finishing touches!!

this muz be one of the grandest and special and extravagant birthday i've ever planned;cos its for someone special.

darl,
this will be THE birthday to rmb...for all the GOOD reasons...its ur special day where u reign as King.i am so thankful for this very day 25 years ago.i love u babybeh!!!

2008-12-30T09:17:00.004+08:00

Due to irritating persuasion and the desire to let out the supressed emotions,thou shall blog.

Firstly, i had a looooooooooooong Xmas weekend(24/12 - half day,25/12-PH,26/12 - OFF,27/12 &28/12 - weekend = no work)..hehe...cool eh....so what did i do??

nothing.

24/12/08: went to my bf's aunt's bbq on xmas eve nite...n got back to his place to play the shots game with him n jay..and got high..ooh..and played that old skool sticks game and Winnie the Pooh UNO till bout 3am plus in e morn.

25/12/08: woke up n jay was hungry.ordered MacD breakfast!!!at last i got to eat the hot delicious hotcakes with syrup and sausage and hashbrown!great food,even better company.jay went bck.me n bf went back to slp.

26/12/08: woke up with the bf at ard 5am plus...sent him off to work(sembawang MRT only..hehe)and went home to slp!!!!woke up ard noon to fetch him from werk...cant rmb what we did that day.at e end of the day i made sure he went to slp n left for home.

27/12/08: i rmb fetching the bf from werk at 11am.

28/12/08: i dun rmb!honest! im not making this up.

29/12/08: this is just yest.MY BF PASSED HIS RTT!!!congrats baby!met the bf after work.supposed to go watch kpak bing bing but decided not to..went back to his place for nasi lemak and his fav drink at the moment - oreo milo ice blended.den we argued.again.

when 2 ppl are there's bound to be an exchange of words that they dun mean.i did.oh well.typical lela.

nonetheless, i still love you.and i am sorry.(so if u do still love me,u'll call me first..hehe..)but the probability of him reading this blog entry is almost zilch.till he get back his phone that is.

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burfdae plans still sailing smoothly.thats gd news for me.again for e record;not my burfdae, its my BF'S...his 25th birthday!! 03.01.09...cant wait!!
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why do ppl make a big deal each time the yr comes to an end?

cos it means to a new yr of possiblities,opportunities and more time to do what ure supposed to do....almost like starting "afresh"...yup...like any novelty, once it wears off,welcome back to reality.ok.lets not be pessismistic,lela.

2008 has been a surprising better year than 2007 and other previous years.
the year i picked myself up from the rustic-angel rship.
the year i truly understood the meaning of love.
the year i was taught the lesson of responsibility.
the year which i was very much physically better in.thank GOD.
the year i was given a re-lesson on money and financial matters.
the year where 16.03.08 is and will always be the MOST beautiful day of my life.(that is till 09.09.09 or 10.10.10 arrives..hehe)

today is the EVE of the NYE.and i cant wait for 2009 to come.

:)

much loves,
lels iq jr.

2008-12-22T17:36:00.003+08:00

a birthday has never gotten so stressful for me...

and its not even my birthday!!!!!!!!!!

but i love surprises...

dun u??

THE cd at the moment.

nicole-ish moments.

2008-12-22T10:33:00.002+08:00

WEDDING PREVIEW
by Jay SheLaLar (the Photographer on my N95)

i love you.

2008-12-16T16:52:00.005+08:00

our "JB neo-print"

darl, this entry is for you.

after 9 months being mrs iq jr. , i am still madly in love.

i must say that you have changed alot.and i mean ALOT.all for the better.

i've been in many relationships;both serious and play2 ones but all fade in comparison to the one im currently in.some may say its too early to speak, but as Coach Leslie alws said;"Give gratitude when gratitude is due."

dearest,

thank you for all the little things that you've done for me.just to make me smile.i am so happy to be by ur side always, thru good and bad times.we've made it this far and we a long more way to go.and trust me, i am ur last.hehe.i love u hunnie, with all my heart.

baby, thanks for the surprise delivery to the office today.iam so pleasantly surprised. :)

malu pun ade.my colleagues are all attempting to steal the ferreo rochers.haha.bedek eh..kate takde pape for me.

in the office with my FANTABULOUS bouquet of ferrero rocher!!!

i its huge i tell u!!!!!
and below is the contents of the card attached to the bouquet.
short and sweet.
:)

2008-12-15T11:48:00.003+08:00

again ive been missing.but im back again.

:)

sooooooooooooo busy.

damned the long leave for the secretary.hehe.

e pics from e kl trip.will be uploaded.dun ask when.even me n be were shocked to find out that the memory card was e normal sizedone.not the micro SD one.mati2 due2 ingat micro SD card.slenge.den the lappy couldnt read the memory card.haha.damned.so wait long2 la ppl.haha.

tomorrow is the 16th. :) 9 months and counting.

to my beloved,

thanks for yest midnight rendevous;macD never tasted so good on a cold rainy nite at the void deck.

coming to officially to 9 months,a short period to others but definitely a hell of a 9 months to us.

- 3 trips(not including the countless JB trips)
- baby junior(may GOD bless her soul)
- a beautiful cammie
-the matching frenzy(phones,jackets, mp3.........)

being in love and being loved in returned is indeed great.thank you for alws being there for me baby. ur my knight in shining armour, mat jambu.and yes, i do love you too.

2008-12-05T10:19:00.002+08:00

im excited.

1st flight with b.

:) although its less than an hour, i think.

cab fare was ex dis morn; effing $39.10!
(admiralty-sembawang-shenton way)

add another $10++ for my tall caramel latte and sandwich from starbucks.

:) yummy. now like no mood to work. oops.still have yet to drink my berry essence.

b..i read the news paper article u mentioned about...

n u were right.it was so touching it made u teared. n me ,i melalak sorang2 yest nite.

b, should smth happen like that to u n me, i would die.deep down inside you know you are my life.

life is short,let us embrace every moment.

much loves,
lela malati

2008-12-04T14:11:00.002+08:00

its raining cats and dogs.

since e colleagues were stuck at wok n i was in e office,they asked me to fetch them with umbrellas...

gos, i swear shenton way was flooding...

guess hus drenched now...

yup me.

so bad that the coffee aunty gave me a towel to line my seat.

im freaking freezing too.

dear GOD, please dun make me sick.u know y.

2008-12-03T11:06:00.001+08:00

counting down.just you and me.

2008-12-01T12:17:00.001+08:00

syg pun. :)

imy too.

and im sorry,b.

2008-11-28T14:32:00.003+08:00

im gg. yup.

even if it means gg alone and not buying another phone.

last attempt.

who noes.dreams may just come true.

wish me luck.

and baby,iloveyou.

hehe.mentel.

2008-11-27T11:53:00.001+08:00

some things are just meant to be dreams.

2008-11-26T10:47:00.003+08:00

this entry is for han!

due to the powers of kempunan-ness, i want to go here...

and eat this....

hurry up tuesday!

btw today is briyani day!!!!
:)

bf,mustafa soon tau..u promised.n yes, i will keep to my promise of no puchase of any type of footwear this month!geez!

Dec is a busybusybusy month!i like!

p/s: thanks for dinner at beach road yest..bistik n mutton chop!!sup tulang soon k...when ure not wearing white...i think its my mamak week dis week!!muahaha!!

2008-11-25T18:06:00.002+08:00

Is your birthday day 3 of the month?(me & the bf)

Your Life : Although you are innocent and romantic but your expression often mislead others that you are an active, fun loving kid. Because of your double personality, it's hard for others to really know the real you. You are careful and patient.

Your Love : Your love is the greatest which often surprises others. No one can bring you to light when you are in love. Your confidence might lead you to the track your parents disagree.

2008-11-25T16:36:00.000+08:00

effing pissed off.

2008-11-25T11:12:00.005+08:00

i've gone thru in and out of the fire.TWICE.

scary IJ moments.not as in school spirit.those in e legal industry wld noe.

i still have my job but.yes,there is a but.

e bf is busy. :(

bf busy = lack of attention = cranky lela

bad equation.haha.imy lah!

so..pay day is coming soon...so gotta control e spending now thinking what wld be my reward of e mth...

im not a follower of brands when it comes to beauty/facial regime and its products but i love my miracle water.even though its effing ex. dis mth im gonna buy...

yup..gonna get the cleanser....like e song goes..one step at a time.

p/s : my SKII facial is confirmed on 071208.happiness!

2008-11-21T10:54:00.000+08:00

Every morning naik MRT,
Naik MRT nak pegi keje,
Today Nampak banyak muke tak mandi,
Makin malas saya nak ke keje….

mabuk pantun lagi.hehe.

2008-11-19T18:40:00.003+08:00

for your entertainment.when WE,customers get irritating.

2008-11-19T18:26:00.008+08:00

STC homecoming.

memories.IJ spirit.and meeting an old friend, Aifa.catching up an my fav coach and now friend,mr francis.

2008-11-19T18:19:00.002+08:00

WHY?

am i NOT qualified?

she made the choice.

(POKEMON: I choose you!)

im glad to bask in ur joy,babe.

2008-11-17T16:35:00.010+08:00

this is some of e way overdue-d pics n entries.

n for e record, i am pissed at the moment.

me n han's meet up.at last.

see e lady in purple in e back ground??

thats han's blood sister...

muahaha...

im so gonna get screwed for this...

2008-11-14T12:45:00.003+08:00

went to watch dis movie yest...damn funny la...n that giraffe i susch a romantic...

cair akak tau....

i just love dis dude here..damn adorable looking...

his role is small(literally!just his size) but shows such a big character....

Persistence and Perseverence should be his middle name...whether ppl liked it or not, he was determined to do what he wants and its dis mall small cutey pie who brought the ultimate "sacrifice"!

go n watch the movie.

2008-11-13T14:15:00.002+08:00

Catherine House : CHAMPIONS!

4 ST. CLARE 2002

memories.

makes you reminisce.

made you smile.

miss them.

2008-11-10T16:41:00.002+08:00

im in TIP condition now..

Tongue In Pain

im so hungry la...so many things i cldnt eat...

lets not even go into kissing..i mean like pecks on the cheeks only??

muahaha...

2008-11-07T17:45:00.002+08:00

yest was beautiful.

although i got lost from tanjong pagar to raffles place. n i call myself a CBD girl.
han thought i got kidnapped.

muahaha.

like what han said;we had so much things to talk about but upon meeting her we didnt noe where to start and there were moments of silence.good silence.missed her.

oh well after we started tucking in fries, celebrity brownie(han's) and sticky,chewy sundae(mine) at Swensen's Marina, full throttle story sharing and cathing up on lost time began.hey, even perfect 10 resurfaced la...

haha...

han, for everything that you had to go thru and i wasnt there is smth that i regret.really wished that i cld turn back the hands of time.nvm,lets make use of what we still have.

this is life,like it or not,it moves even when ure stagnant.

we're definitely spending more time together,since im THE bridesmaid.am really honoured.din expect it at all.i dun care;i still want 2 sessions!hehehe...

met up with the BF after dat..had dinner(ok..the timing's more like supper but dinner for him) at NYNY..nice place..alws wanted to eat there but no kaki to go with me...food was fab!!!!!!!e company's better...org in lup..macam gitu la...

ok la...my 11 page defence is done..off to meet be after his bike prac at ssdc!!!

rindu gitu!

2008-11-06T10:29:00.002+08:00

i swear to GOD that i have among the MOST irritating frens ard...(read:mohd-she knows who she is!!)

muahaha....

i do want to update but been stressed at work...how to update??

but u never guessed dat lela malati actuallie cried at work on tues....too stressed up...i would love to bash them up...but everything's well now...maybe it just seemed overwhelming at THAT moment...

we move on;whether we like it or not...

sooooooooooooooooooo many photos to upload!!!but again..lack the time....

looking forward to meeting the abovementioned soul at Marina Square after work...its time to catch up baybeh!!!!

n one more "kentang goreng" email from u, i m so gonna take awful(read:slenge) pics of the "minah metalz"!

muahahaha!!!!

b deployed to Marina Barrage till 2000hrs...
we go home together-gether eh....

love,lels

2008-10-31T10:15:00.002+08:00

And the winner is...........................

S700!!!

was playing ard with it...e pics were great!!!!!

in love all over again...

yes b, ure still No. 1!

2008-10-30T13:14:00.002+08:00

just had e Deepa-Raya lunch at the firm...

the food's good... :)

thanks to Sabar Menanti

but....im stll hungry...standard la...dah la..memang macam tu...

ayik nak kurus tapi makan-nye..MASYALLAH!!!!!!

muahaha.....luckily i still have the fererro rocher and kinder bueno which b bought for me yest..still i think its not enuff...

2008-10-29T14:59:00.004+08:00

its been 7hours 30mins since ur last msg telling me that today u've been deployed to the Prisons and that i have to go home alone.tonight.

no msg or call since then.

i called but i cant get thru.

u see, i think im paranoid.maybe i am.

but im missing u terribly.ive been channeling all my energy to do all my work n all morning stuffs have been cleared.

but u still linger ard.final thoughts are still about u.

dah makan ke belum?hows e toe?still swollen?did they fucked bout break time,again?are u bored to death?did u see another hot/pretty/gorgeous officer?did you miss me too?

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guess what??b just called!!!!!!i was so relieved...so good to hear ur voice b...

he said he text to say he cant call or sms but somehow the prisons have this thingy to block signals or smth...

haiz...he said Prisons is worse than banks...hehe...bored to death lah tu....

thanks for e call n e kisses!!!!muah x 100 back to u...

hahaha...gross!!

suddenly i have this burst of energy to finish up the 7 Defences screaming on my right...

muahaha....

meluat plak aku...hehehe...

2008-10-28T18:47:00.002+08:00

i was reading some blogs just now...

lets not mention names....

envy,jealousy,sympathy and maybe other unfavourable emotions were flowing deep in my veins...

sometimes i wonder why arent we all made equal..they have it...physique...money...looks...intelligence...

im sure they have problems n issue..but that aside it seem life is still good...

am i not grateful for what ive been born into and the path that i'm still carving out?

i believe my day will come,when i can confidently say to u that im proud of who and what i am.

on another note, being a legal exec at tkqp is rather cool...muahahaha...

MOAs..Defences....48hour Notices... i like...being bimbotic is just a facade.i never thought i was intellectual enough to stand all this legal shit...

but hey!its my kinda shit!

am looking forward to halloween...with b, of course...

n he says that 50% is ok to spare for e cammies...but now the bonus question is...

WHICH ONE??

oh well...im gg to meet him later anyway...will show him e specs...cant wait...n yes...getting my half dead mp3 back from b...

2008-10-28T15:22:00.004+08:00

i like meat.

prefer to have smth substantial to grab on.

hehe.i prefer bulky phones to slim ones.ppl ard me noes how easily i lose thing...still rmb i left my ngage in e comp lab back in TP n my friends "hid" it to teach me a lesson..

same for cameras.so im looking at several cameras(read:slightly bulky but not that ex).

b is so gonna be mad if i said im gonna spend a few more hundred buckeroos!!

im into black or hot pink cammies...

i got my eyes on..

and

arent they cute???

price range: SGD$300 to SGD$400.

so how b??50/50??

hehe..im so screwed.

btw my meaty prefernces do not apply to my physique or choice of partners.

muahahhaa.

2008-10-28T14:07:00.002+08:00

went to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 :SENIOR YEAR at causeway with baby,nonie n irro..

:)

we so love Vanessa Hudgens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn hot i tell u that girl!!!was like drooling..i love the fashion and all that singing n dancing!!!!!!!!

hehe...thanks b...although we were both sick n frezzing our asses off in the cinema...

dun u just love public holidays!!!

*matching mp3 plak tu....

muahaha...

2008-10-24T14:11:00.001+08:00

for your info,

baby jr passed away on 22.10.08

ure dearly missed by us.

the burial moved me to tears but b was all strong. haiz.

bye bye baby.

2008-10-21T19:18:00.004+08:00

heys...

yup..its late n im in e office...

i know..oh well..finished up some defences..n now waiting for b...

gg for burger ramly tonight!!!

mummy' s away in malacca visiting mak long...so tonight will be at b's...

MIL says baby jr needs to go but i dun wanna throw it away..i promise her pay day i'll bring baby jr to see e vet...i promise...

i wanna put new pics..but havent upload yet except these i stole from pipin...hehe..

i love my nieces.haiz.

i will upload pics with my "extended" hair ok...hehe...

n yes, i took e extensions out already...

i am so hungry...

when is tania comin back...me want me dress...n we should hang out...miss u kak!!

b..hurry..i hungry!!i can hear e pasar malam calling!!

2008-10-15T19:38:00.002+08:00

it was SO dramatic in the last few days....

2 days in a row tearing(ok!crying) in the train home....

haiz...

but things r ok now...

:) yayness!!!

but nov may or may not be postponed...

no, we did not break up!!haha...

will be updating those associated with nov soon ya...

hehe...

2008-10-07T15:53:00.001+08:00

yeah i know...

im at work yet im blogging...

taking a break la...

so just wanna tel u that im like soooooooooooo happy.....

y??sorry cant jinx it...hehe....

november will be such a great month!!!!!!!!!!

hehe..

:)

2008-10-02T19:47:00.002+08:00

omg!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe i've been gone since forever!!!!

i think i might be doing up a new blog....dis blog's name is too related to an...

its not as if she cared or give a damn bout it...

n that life goes on,whether we like it or not..

n i thank GOD cos im spending my life with ppl hu actuallied cared...friends, family n my boo, iq jR

we just celebrated 6 months of r'ship..n still so much love..and our first raya..(will upload e pics k...)

problems will stay..but somehow i seem to be handling them ok..thanks to e support ard me...

im back in e CBD area..so more time to catch up wit han..wawa..rilla n kak yanti...i cant wait...

n b...i miss u.. :)

2008-06-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

its been so long..

n definitely many things/situations had occurred.

but nothing as bad as what had been transpired between me n b..

no,we didnt fight or break up.

smth to me that shldnt happen at all.

i really hope it isnt true cos im still madly deeply in love with you.

it cant be that its sizzling out.

the fear of losing your loved one is such excruciating pain beyond words.

had i done too little?or simply not good enough?

even worse,was never me in the first place?

Should i fight or take flight?

again i gave my everything to love n e one i love,

n again i might pay the price for it.

nonetheless, i loved you,am still loving you n will alws love you.

love,mrs iq.

2008-05-12T19:42:00.001+08:00

now is the time to wait.

2 to 4 weeks more.

again i did the shittiest..

i noe i did it again.

im really sorry.

but alws rmb dis, i never lied to u.

2008-04-26T19:15:00.002+08:00

i had e longest day todae!!!!!!!!!!

slept at like 1 am ++
woke up at 530..
round after round after round after round...

never have i been so happy to receive the slips of paper...

haha..next impt date: 9th May 2008 at 1600hrs

:)

tania's back!!!!!cant wait to meet up wif u kak!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dearest hubby,i missed u n nites at ur place...but oh well..

if this what normal ppl go thru..i dun wanna be normal!!!

MOS!u better give me back my boo!!!!!!!

2008-04-25T13:10:00.000+08:00

g dis is so fuckin irritating.

damn u la fucked up bro.

2008-04-23T21:53:00.001+08:00

everyday im falling...

in love that is.

with my boo.

somehow it seems there's hope after all.

that such a thing called love exists.

i still dun like MOS!!

haha..

2008-04-17T03:29:00.001+08:00

i never knew i had so much emotions.

i alws thought i was strong.

never did i expect to feel so much pain.

im not that cold.

im a mere mortal after all.

2008-04-15T19:49:00.002+08:00

in a few more hours,we're officially a month old...

:)

of course i did smth...

;)

i hope she likes it...

i love my boo,iq JR sharif.

2008-04-14T16:34:00.002+08:00

now im like extremely sick...

gosh...loads have been happening..

one thing's for sure i cant please everyone.

all the time im accommodating to everyone's whims n fancies..

made them happy,compromised my happiness.

every thought that i wanted to feel joy too??

so i made the decision to stay on cos i noe she makes me happy.

i believe in her.no matter what,i believe i noe that she's not gonna be like my past experience cos at e end of the day she's good to me.

like all r'ships we gotta try hard to work it out.

life wouldnt be the same without you.

on another note,one stage has been cleared.

next important 26 april 2008.

anyway i have an interview with Rajah & Tann on Wed..haha..is lela gg back to legal industry???

haha...

2008-04-12T00:36:00.002+08:00

i cant believed whatever had happened.

the lying n all.

i guess it doesnt pay to be nice.

guess what i lied too.i lied bout being drunk n gg back to aizat's place.juz to see how would u react if i did e same.

guess e reaction i got?loads of cursing n immediate breakup.

compare dat to the things u did to me n how i handled them.

thanks so much.for all e sweet memories n e pain.

thanks to reeza for listening out...aizat my best fren..and e rest too at werk.

.since 1996.

2008-04-09T13:32:00.005+08:00

been such a day...

lunch with fiza...how much i missed her...

den facial at leonard drake...

mani n pedi at PINC..

gladiator sandals from Charles n Keith...

tania playing arcade games..which i brought so much sweets home..a cute hamster n a dancing banana...haha.. :D

tricked into watching Shutter(which u guys noe that i wont be watching the movie due to some sort of disease:read:Penakut)

went back to her place to help ibu to do food biz...standard la...den got bored...

guess what..at 1am we went to Mustapha Centre to shop!!!b was not happy initially...but she got in the groove soon after...

went back at ard 3plus...n watched KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI...and as per normal..i cried buckets!!!!my b kept laughing at me...it was so sad la...

reminded me of daddy cos i noe hw it feels to lose one of your parents..dis may its gonna be 9 yrs since u left ayah...n i miss u ayah...alws.

den after that..well..to give u a hint, DAMN my period la!!!!ARGH!!

so movie ended bout 7am..i woke up at 11 just to prepare irro for school..now i now what mums have to do man...

n guess what...having my b's family is like having my own family...

i love it wen b reminisce bout how we met...

:)

n the fact doesnt change that i love you.

ok..in a few hrs im gg to work,yeah i noe im supposed to be off.

ot la.

now let the pics do e talking...

2008-04-08T02:55:00.002+08:00

i havent been blogging cos ive not been home.

that long enough to blog.

haha..home is now just a stop over.

love has been great,with its fair share of ups n downs.

but i feel happy being hers.being in her arms seemed like the safest place on earth.

but i cant deny the jealousy.i tried to tame it but it seemed to get the better of me.

i miss her the moment i step for home.

gosh.mushy i noe.

i miss frens too.trying to catch up with them now.

all those lost time.

GOD,please let the good time last.a lil longer.

2008-03-27T02:39:00.002+08:00

it hurts to hear e one u love call u to say that she's drunk n might go home with someone whom she finds gorgeous in the club.

it hurts even more cos uve been at work n cldnt do anything bout it.

it hurts terribly to hear the slurred words that she loves you when ure at home all tired from work.

it hurts you the most when they have no idea how much they've hurt you.

but you love them anyway,because you just do.

yes,i love you.

2008-03-25T23:54:00.002+08:00

250308

dinner at HRC.n just spending time together.
the shoes n perfume.
ok n su n nana who were there too.
thanks for everything.
and yes,im happy. :)

THE DATE?
.120408.
wish me luck okies??

2008-03-24T01:09:00.002+08:00

dis is how it hurts.

when i dun reveal,i get the pressure to expose.

n when im exposed, it hurts you.it pressurizes you.

is it my fault?

i swear in GOD's name that smth is wrong with me.

come april,im gonna do it.

fuck everything else.

2008-03-22T19:48:00.002+08:00

ica!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe la im scared of thunder n lightning but....

U DUN DROP MY WATER FACE LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

she said im happier now...

n i agree..im more at peace i guess... :)

n well....

pls dun go Dubai/ UK / Copenhagen yet....please??

2008-03-22T15:03:00.003+08:00

thanks so much for the lovely surprise... :) i love boy!(thats e name of the botak turtle holding the heart..haha..)
and yes, thats you.outside DXO.what a nite.hahaha..

2008-03-22T13:41:00.003+08:00

cant slp..

haha.so i decided to follow up on my blogshop.

so if u guys wanna get smth,u noe..ur designer stuffs..

do tell me..wait..visit my blogshop.

n i'll get it..AUTHENTICITY matters..and lower den e retail/commercial price aite?

my blogshop addie?

http://www.unconventionalgeek.blogspot.com/

pass e word ard.

:)

iq's

2008-03-17T23:27:00.001+08:00

its been so long since i last blogged.

lotsa things happen.

but right now i noe i pissed Iq.

im sorry.

my bad habit.

when will i ever change?

im really sorry.

2008-03-04T16:48:00.002+08:00

i spent e whole day on e comp, eat, watch tv...den back to comp...

haha...doing up my blogshop...

coming soon okies...

n to my msian FB...semangat seh org tu!!!ok la... APRIL!!!
actually i cant wait either!!!

Krish asked me why i didnt call her...well...why should i??

like i said, i dun need a gf.

the reality?im scared.

2008-03-03T17:14:00.003+08:00

today im 22.

:)

did not do anything cos i got back from work dis morn ard 3plus...so woke up at ard 1plus in e afternooon...

haha...its ok...

sis did a meal specially for me...

mum called...

all e bday wishes i got thru sms n friendster...

thanks everyone....

n an,thanks for remembering...its a lovely surprise...

since yest nite i was werking i celebrated my bdae with these 2 goons....haha...

ikumi said her eyes look like fishballs!!haha

kak rahimah step jambu all e time je!!!

ikumi.lela.rahimah.

oh well.im not into celebrating my 22nd...but im into gd dinners with those hu matter...

so i have e whole of march to celebrate!!!

ayah,i miss u.

same to you,rustic.

2008-02-29T21:25:00.002+08:00

i made a new fren todae...

her name is su...

so damn funny la...

:)

i bit H todae...

i am really thankful for her presence...

:)

cant wait for my bdae!!!!!!!!!!

i watch step up 2 online!!!

nice!!!!!!!!!!!!

n someone said im gorgeous!!!

dun u love compliments???

2008-02-27T20:48:00.002+08:00

am sick.

haiz.

mum is here. :))

met rilla n her new bf just now. :)

~~KRABI~~ PHUKET is on!

im still hanging on..

to GOD noes wat.

but its painful.

now i FEAR everything.

one thing's for sure.

nothing is certain.

2008-02-23T21:02:00.002+08:00

:)

hoped u liked e brownie!!

thanks for e java chip frapp n e heavenly choc cake!!!!

cant wait for my burfdae!!!

actually im doing anything to celebrate my 22nd..

just like e idea of that special day that brought abt my existence.

HDB...hurry up!!!

btw..im having sore throat n a clod now...

thanks to e OTs i did...

oh....

2008-02-21T22:35:00.004+08:00

ok..

i noe ppl are worried cos ive been doing OTs...in fact ive not been utilising my off days..

but im ok...dun worry..

now i noe y she did OT so much..its better den to slog ur ass off den to be attached rite..

but ive got great company.

thank GOD.

some updated pics for all.to emphasize on my existence.

2008-02-16T22:15:00.002+08:00

FUCK YOU!

useless piece of SHIT.

this is e last straw.

this is e last time ure gonna make my mum cry.

this is e last time ure gonna call her mum.

2008-02-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

memories from e past keep on resurfacing.

it made me fear of the future that i could love no one else but you.

and critical of the fact that other could love me better den u do.

but, i dun care.

im in the pursuit of MY happiness.

been so busy n tired catching up on lost time with the rest of my life for those time n ppl i sacrificed for u.

thanks Huda.thanks feez.thanks Han.

oh btw,tanning with Han on Sat was HILARIOUS!!

haha...

2008-02-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

i just did my nails.

by myself.cos e senior said my 3 weeks old manicured nails were horrendous.

at least dis time i was calm n it turned out pretty ok. next week they're off to the manicure anyway :)

loads of things needs to be done dis month with my measly trg pay.haiz.

oh well.

i shared e cupcakes order with my niece.so 6 cupcakes for me....who shall i give them to??shall i eat them all???glutton lels!!!

Vday is a day to celebrate love n friendship to me..though it seems sad to be alone.if u get my drift.

i wonder hus gonna be my team leader???

i miss my mummy.

i miss her.

2008-02-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

i AM giving up.

i deserve better.

n i want to be treated better.

i wanna live life to the fullest!ENJOY while it lasts!!

to H: ure my hero...ure such a great fren.... :) for everything,i thank God for having u ard...

cant wait for krabi seh!!!!!!!!!!!

hehe....

and Vday with cupcakes!!

love,lels

2008-02-02T03:07:00.000+08:00

had e talk...

for over 2hrs...

how i miss those conversations....

but whats E outcome?

n to e effing bitch christina: SCREW YOU!

*doll domination*

doll domination